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[29 Sep 2009|08:42pm] |
Watch this:
Then watch this:
The more times I see this more more obsessed I become with it.
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[05 Aug 2009|03:10am] |
It's three in the morning and I can't sleep since I fell asleep this afternoon on the floor like an idiot. It's what reading for A+ does to me I guess.
Next week is when the lease to Pretty House starts. Money is tight, so I've been eating at home. Coincidentally my appetite's been going out of control along with my metabolism, and I'm losing weight nonstop. I'm willing to say it's a good thing since I've been (trying) working out (sort of), and I pretty much look the same, so either I'm getting in better shape or I'm losing weight internally and am going to die soon.
But aside from the hypochondria, I feel calmer than usual -- more so than I thought I'd be right before a big move (from 9th street to 4th street, but still). Thomas told me the other night that I looked so happy lately, and I still am not quite sure what he meant. I think I surprised him somehow. I didn't think anything had changed, really.
It could be that I've been less distracted the past few months. I haven't really been too worried about getting noticed by whatever group of people, and I've been instead focusing better on what's right in front of me. Normally I would be a little worried about going too far down this road, since it easily leads to isolation and narrows a person's view of things, but I really had been spreading myself too thin. I need to be there for the people that actually care.
As I was saying earlier to Steve, we should be able to associate with the people that don't accept us, without becoming too much like them. I'm still putting myself out there; I just need to check my own shit first. And I feel pretty confident about how I'm doing. I might even say that I'm happy without being content, which is pretty close to where I want to be.
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[14 Jun 2009|02:15am] |
This week set a pretty good tone for what life is going to be like for the next few months, along with bringing to rest a lot of old issues and doubts that have been lingering around for just too long. Topped it all off with a trip to the springs. Ahhhhh closure, it just feels so good.
Things are finally starting to move forward again. It basically happened when I realized that a simple life just isn't going to happen for me, whether I like it or not. Pretentious, maybe, but that belief alone is all it took to get me out of this fear of stagnation.
Some important people are leaving now, but it's alright. It's just what I need actually. That and a makeover, for sure.
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[24 Mar 2009|11:10am] |
Karaoke last night was ridiculous. I never would've thought so many people would be there all having a good time.
First was Sam's rendition of "All the Single Ladies". Genius.
Then Changes by 2Pac came on. The line came up, "And although it seems heaven sent / we ain't ready, to see a black President," and people just lost their shit, it was like, "AHHHHHH!"
Then "I Want You Back" by the Jackson 5. Man oh man.
Definitely a good vibe in that place.
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[22 Feb 2009|04:45pm] |
Still a bit stressed out. Classes, jobs, people, all going nowhere it seems. Someone told me today that I was acting just like a cousin of his that ended up losing it completely and going to the mental hospital. And I'm pretty sure he was serious.
All I need is this trip. This trip to Boston is the most important thing in my life right now. It doesn't even matter how I get there, I will run there myself if I have to. And it doesn't even matter if I come back disappointed, I just need to see the goddamn place with my own eyes, and then I will know where I have to go from here.
In times like this I find that the following video will always cheer me up, no matter what:
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[09 Feb 2009|12:25pm] |
"Created by San Francisco-based beverage marketing firm McKenzie River Corporation, early marketing relied on word of mouth primed by giving away large quantities of the beverage. Its critics dislike the high acidity, sweetness, and blatantly artificial flavor. Ironically, fans like the beverage for the same reasons, although the caffeine and high alcohol content, as well as the herbal components, also play a factor. Sparks also has a tendency to change the color of the tongue and teeth temporarily, after consumption of several of these beverages due to FD&C Yellow No.5. In some regions this discoloration is referred to as "Sparks Mouth". The drink caught on within the American hipster community, which has been known for its ironic glorification of several other cheap, low-grade alcoholic beverages."
That's it, I'm off the stuff. Didn't even stop making them, they're still everywhere!! LIES I say!
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[07 Sep 2008|11:16pm] |
...and so Britney Spears rode off, in a magical golf cart of wonder, into the sunset, never to be seen again. Or wait, that was her comeback or something.
I normally don't watch these kind of things. I only watched the VMA's because vh1 told me to and I thought I Love Money would be on tonight.
I suppose while I'm on here I may as well write about what's going on in my own life. I read through Henry Rollins' journal the other day and it inspired me a little in some strange, "that's the life I want but not really so I may as well live it vicariously" kind of way. The man is paranoid, violent, and maybe even a little simple-minded, but his spirit makes him one of the greatest celebrities out there I think. Not to say he isn't clever, he's got some of the best quotes I think I've ever heard. For example, "Hope is the last thing a person does before they are defeated."
Really though comparing Henry Rollins to the people on the VMA's tonight really isn't very fair competition. Although I will say that Rihanna can do no wrong.
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| If it's a dream, then I woke up. |
[24 Jul 2008|02:21am] |
Conversations with myself to keep me from boring,
An active imagination can be a dangerous thing.
Say it'll be alright if I can close my eyes,
Still awake and it's only two in the morning.
Still thinking, what's the action?
Just got to relax and,
End the flagrant fantasies that border on insanity.
This looks like the basics.
Better get it in your head.
Rewrite the beginning, now get back to bed.
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[21 Jun 2008|11:34pm] |
Get Smart has the best role I've seen Bill Murray play in years.
I'm serious.
YEARS.
Like ten of them.
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| How to Win Friends and Influence People |
[11 Jun 2008|12:47am] |
How to please, how to wait,
this young mind has no time
time to spare, time to waste.
Keep a smile on your face.
He who waits for the world
to change, is a fool.
These days stuck up, learning
to act, play it cool.
Still waiting to still
Raise my value some more.
These days... these days...
Like a drill they're a bore.
To my head it's stuck waiting
I can't make a move.
Lucky me nothing comes,
push it in.
help me out.
What diamonds may come, once put under pressure.
Gotta make some room first, bustin pipes is my pleasure.
In a motionless world,
Can we still get ahead?
No one left but me now,
While living, still dead.
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[22 Jan 2008|10:26pm] |
I really wanted to catch up on my reading tonight, but this whole Heath Ledger business has got me down...
I'm all about the Mary Kate cover-up though. Can't truss it.
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[18 Jan 2008|07:03pm] |
So I told someone that as a kid, I was scared of any movie that had Sigourney Weaver in it. And someone asked me if it was because they're all about aliens and shit. And I said no, it's because they all have Sigourney Weaver in it.
Sigourney Weaver scares the shit out of me.
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[16 Dec 2007|03:15pm] |
"It's a great outlet for the control-freak beast that lives inside of me. People aren't supposed to do what I say, but machines are."
-- Me, on why I'm a Computer Engineer
This could also explain why I'm prone to fits of rage involving circuit boards and a baseball bat. Man I go through those things like toilet paper.
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| He's Magic! |
[20 Oct 2007|02:20pm] |
"So in class, abortion came up somehow and this girl started saying shit about it."
"You mean like how she had an abortion?"
"No the opposite. She was saying how God has the cure to cancer and AIDS but won't give it to us because of abortion clinics."
"Oh."
"So I just said to her, first, you're wrong. And there's already a cure for AIDS, Magic Johnson has it."
"Haha... Wait, Magic Johnson's still alive?"
"Yeah man."
"Oh. Yeah I guess he has the cure then."
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[04 Aug 2007|04:37pm] |
Now I just feel like I'm being made fun of. In the code I'm trying to edit, my computer screen is mocking me with a line that reads, "NOTE: WE ARE NO LONGER ALLOWED TO SLEEP!"
Couldn't have said it better myself. This of course is referring to the line of code that sets the process to sleep, but I figure fuck that noise anyway. I'll sleep when I want. Like right now.
G'night bitches.
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[25 Jun 2007|04:41pm] |
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EDIT: WHAT THE FUCK HOW DID CARELESS WHISPER NOT MAKE THE COUNTDOWN?
Sorry, I'm feeling a little emotional right now.
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[24 Apr 2007|12:28am] |
THE BREAKFAST CLUB.
UNCUT.
UNCENSORED.
SATURDAY NIGHT @ 1 ON COMEDY CENTRAL.
My weekend plans are now decided.
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